Friday, November 21, 2008
8:43:00 PM
Title: The End Of A Chapter...
Finally, A level has ended. It is a moment that I have waited for so long, a moment that I wanted to get over and done with. The process of studying and memorising fact is really terrible...
That's why on 18/11/2008 at around 9.15am, when the teacher says "pens down" or "time's up", I heave a sigh of relief...
However... when that moment that I have waited for so long has finally ended, I do not know why, but I feel so lost. Somehow, it seems that I have lost my sense of direction. I do not know what to do next. [ This is soooo weird as while I am studying for my As, I cannot control myself but to think of what I will do after A levels. For example, taking martial arts lesson, yoga, shopping, tidying the whole house, watch lots of animes n read lots of manga. ]
Not only that, something suddenly struck my mind that makes me feel so depressed. That "something" is the thought that I would not be able to meet with my friends in school anymore. We cannot see each other in school everyday, we cannot eat in the atrium and talk crap, we cannot study in the same classroom, we cannot joke and play with each other everyday le...
My heart sank when I thought of this...
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The first day when I see my class...
I remembered we were sitting in the hall. Beside me is yangqing n hoting i think. Coz I remembered that guy is like "ah beng", and I am quite scared. HAHA~ I wanted to talk to yangqing to make friend with her... BUT THEN, that time jonathan is sitting beside her and he is talking non-stop to her. I do not have the chance to 'interact' at all. So, I just sit there and stone.
Then, I received a message from ChErmaine. I thought it is Charmaine lor, cause I do not think that I have Chermaine's handphone no at all... Haha, I tried to look for her, but maybe she is TOO SMALL to be seen ba.
Then, I think is Orientation... I saw Kimberly, I try to make friend with her, but maybe she is too cold, so I never really get to talk to her. BUT I remembered that I was standing beside her almost all the time ba. Then.. I saw Jingyi, I do not know how I make friend with her at all. I only remembered that we are "quite" close because she got a lot of COLD joke to share...
Next, when we are having lunch in the canteen, I think Peiyu, Liting and dunno who are talking about taiwanese drama. I was very excited then, but I acted to be 'cool' and sit there quietly. I was trying very hard to hear what they are saying cause I was sitting at another table. I knew at that time, I was controlling my enthusiasm in my "burning" heart. Haha...
K... I shall stopped writing that cause it is getting boring...
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What I want to say is that...
I am really happy that these girls have played a part in my life.
I am lucky to have such wonderful memories of the happy moments we have together... The time we crap, "DISTRACTORS", and "GORILLA, TWEETY, SALLY?, GRACE... And the outing we have recently. I would like to say a big "THANK YOU" for helping me to find "HIP" clothes. But I am someone who don't really like to shop except in popular bookshop... So, I may stone a lot at that time... Haha...
OH YEAH! I never write "MUSHY" poem ok... It is just... erm... something that I have thought of or found in the web that I think is cool. SOOO, I am not MUSHY!!!
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No matter how depressed or how unwilling I am, I know that the time has come for us to go on different routes. We have reached a "junction", and now, we have to choose different paths to continue our journey and to meet new friends... This is a part of a cycle of life... and we should move on... happily.
" Everything has a begining and an end.
Life is just a cycle of starts and stops.
There are ends we don't desire,
but they are inevitable.
We have to face them.
It's what being human is about. "
- Something that I copied from the web.
OK... I am really tired now as I have just come back from work...
So.... Erm... BYE!
POP; a bubble just burst
Sunday, May 11, 2008
5:53:00 PM
YO!
It has been a very long time since I had last blogged. Yup.. And this is most probably my last post....
OK... First, I shall talk about the presents that I have received for my B-DAE. (Sorry, I am too lazy to take the pictures down and show it.)
FIRSTLY, Thanks to the spurts..... for giving me 2 sets of CLOTHES!
Ya.. Clothes. And that would be the second time that I have received clothes from them..
Hmmm.. Is there anything wrong with the way I dress ar?
Anyway, the clothes are really not my style like. BUT hope I can "adapt" to such clothing SOON... But reali thanks to ah peck n cher as they must be having a hard time searching for the clothes.. THANKS!!! =)
SECONDLY, Thanks to audrey and nets ..... for giving me CHOCS and .....
a MARIO MUSHROOM POUCH.
When I got that, I got a shock sia. COZ it is soooooooooooooooo "cute" and it seems to suit children who are like below the age of 10. But i really like it a lot. Once i reach home, I tried to "wear" it in front of the mirror to see how I look. ( = . = )
THIRDLY, Sab and sijie .... for giving me a MUG
Haha... It is a lovely winnie the pooh mug and I can't bear to use it now. Anyway, I did not expect them to give me the present since we have not been talking for soo long.
LASTLY, the class? ....... for giving me a SUPEPR DUPER nice DUCKY or rather CHICKY book.
haha... realli like it.... maybe becoz of the chick ba... HAHA! Anyway, i took back my word that I like anything with a yellow beak. Coz i juz realised tt there is 'something' that I don't like. HAHA!! *(I wonder whether you know what I am talking about or not.)
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MJ
A place that I think I am happy that I study in.
coz I found a really good 'role model' there.........
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NIGHTMARE
I had a nightmare again. A nightmare that I am running away from some weird guy that wanna kill me. SIGH.... WHY do I always have such dreams? ARGH!!!
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STUDY
I feel really scared now. I dunno why but I just feel very insecure. Maybe it is time to really buck up and start to work much harder...
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Don't Quit
by Edgar A. Guest
When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
when the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
when the funds are low and the debts are high,
and you want to smile but you have to sigh,
when care is pressing you down a bit -
rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns.
As everyone of us sometimes learns.
And many a fellow turns about when he might have won had he stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow -
you may succeed with another blow.
Often the goal is nearer than it seems to a faint and faltering man;
often the struggler has given up when he might have captured the victor's cup;
and he learned too late when the night came down,
how close he was to the golden crown.
Success is failure turned inside out -
the silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
and when you never can tell how close you are,
it may be near when it seems afar;
so stick to the fight when you're hardest hit -
it's when things seem worst, you must not quit.
POP; a bubble just burst
Thursday, March 13, 2008
7:17:00 PM
LA LA LA!!!It has been a long long time since i have blogged.
The day that I looked forward for sooo many months : 07/03/08
Not really becoz of the A lvl Chinese result but...
something else...
Haha! I always thought that I will meet pervert that day.
I always believe... that is the day that I will meet him for the last time in my life.
Can you imagine it?
Some "stranger" that you have met will have such a great impact on one person's life.
I don't know whether I said this before. But I used to hate pervert. I hate him because of the way that he has portrayed himself. He seems to be soo confident, soo good at everything, soo smart and soo successful in doing anything. Just like someone that I have seen in an anime.
The character that I have admired so much and aim to be like... The character that I hoped I can eventually be one day...
That's why I hated the person when I see that he is sooo uncannily similar to that character. That is probably the reason why I called him "PERVERT".
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Soo many things have happened last year. And I don't feel like writing those stuff...
HOHOHO! This is what my expression is like.. =>>
I was feeling kinda disappointed when I failed to see him on that day. Everything seems to be in a dream on that day. I felt soo emotional that I actually cried when I see anyone cry. I got the urge to just cry when people looked at me...
I don't know why but somehow I just feel like crying... (Is it because I have not seen him ?
I have always imagne or believe that someday in the future, I will somehow meet that person... Somewhere we will just pass by each other in the streets... Somehow, I can still see him even in the future... Maybe that is just a mere imagination that will never happen...
Anyway the more I think, the more I will deny that pervert is my EC. The more I will think him to be my role model... Maybe that is true. Maybe that is what I wish to become in MJ, in the future... Or is he an idol to me? As I feel so happy whenever I read sth about him... Haha... I don't know... But right now, I think he is not my EC anymore... (Or m i just denying? ) This is soo complicated.
I remembered that my wish is to be successful and happy. I really want to be a successful person. But that seems to be soo hard to achieve....
Anyway, I know that I have to work extra hard than anyone if I want to achieve my goals. I know that I am not that clever as compared to others. I know that I am a slow learner. I know all these... and that's why I SHOULD work harder than anyone... BUT then, the thing is that...
I am NOT doing so...
SIGH....
Some Quotes To Share...
Injuries will heal as long as we are alive. even though they may leave scars.
Don't ever stop.
Keep on walking,
no matter where to.
Keep on walking!
Until the day you die.
- D.Grey Man
POP; a bubble just burst
Saturday, February 16, 2008
12:30:00 PM
55 words
Sigh... haha.. That's the fastest that i can go...
U all should go n try it too... haha
POP; a bubble just burst
Friday, February 15, 2008
10:51:00 PM
HAPPIE BURFDAE JO!!!
Haha! Guess wad?!
I think this is the first time that I have planned for an outing leh.
But then...
only the MJ people turn out.
But I also cannot blame the rest lar... Cause it is really a very last minute plan.
And i can understand how rush they have to be if they wanna come for the celebration.
ANYWAY, I still cannot believe that we spent about 8 hours crapping and gossipin.
Haha.. It is a nice and slack day lar.
Guess wad.. i suddenly dun feel like blogging so....
I would like to wish josephine
HAPPY 18th birthday!
And all the best!!!
PS: Hope you like the card and present tt we gave and I hope that our friendship can last for ver long. I am not greedy as I wont ask for a friendship that lasts forever, but I hope that ours can last for a few lifetimes... =]
Smile Always!
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Sianz.. dun feel like bloggin liao.
No mood sia, as someone has not update "its" blog for a long time... ARGG.. = =
POP; a bubble just burst
Sunday, January 6, 2008
9:46:00 AM
First week of 2008 has already ended.
AND I am feeling so lost during tutorials. = =
Guess wad, I have forgotton most of the things that I have learnt last year.
SIGH~
I really have to pull up my socks now... (Until it reaches my knee!)
--- It is soo hard to focus during lessons. ---
POP; a bubble just burst
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
4:19:00 PM
Today is o1/o1/2oo8.
The first day of the year.
The start of my J2 life.
The first thing that I am feeling now is : R E G R E T
AHHHHHHH!!!! I have not done a lot of revision & exercises.
I was just watching anime, drama and reading manga for my holiday.
ARGGGG!!!
And that was how i end my 2oo7. (= =! )
Anyway, 2oo7 is a year that i feel VERY lost.
I could not even remember most of the things I have done. (except PW) = =
ERM.. It does not seem very memorable.
I only remember my ECs sia.... (^^")
2oo8.
The last year that i will be wearing school uniform.
NOOOO!!!
The last year of being spoon-feed by teachers...
SIGH~
Anyway, I have set some goals for 2oo8.
1. To be happy
2. To be really happy!!!
3. To be successful
4. To be really successful!!!
5. To be extremely successful!!!!! MUAHAHAHA!!
Conclusion: To be happy and successful!
2007
a year which i met a lot of people.
a year which helped me to understand more about the world.
a year which make me feel so confuse.
a year which i found a "role-model".
a year which helps me to know what i really want...
07S205
a class that i am in now,
with lots of different types of people.
Trust me... really got a lot of Different TYPES!!!
Anyway, i like the "girls" clique.
They are really fun and CRAZY!
(And that includes "kim". I am kinda glad that we have changed her a bit.)
And also someone who i can say out wadeva that is troubling me, Jing.
She is really a nice friend wor... ^^
Not forgetting others like the cavewoman, yang.
Cher, pei, li and qing...
All short-form .
POP; a bubble just burst
